When Grief Clashes.

The loss is deep, the wound is open and oozing pain. I cannot breathe, I no longer feel…anything. This moment in time does not feel real, I am numb. How could this have happened, I never imagined my world altered forever and leaving me in such agony.

I open my eyes, I’m grieving, I close my eyes, I’m grieving and you are too as well. I want to help you through this but you are not seeing this and feeling this the way that I am. I want to cry, I want to scream I am angry. I’m not ready to pack up their clothes, remove their things from where they once lived it is too soon and this makes me angrier.

You’re never ready for Deep life changing pain. It arrives like a tsunami and completely pummels you. Do we ever really know why it had to happen this way? What I do know for sure is, loss is hard, grief is hard, healing is hard. Supporting each other during it all, is hard. You do the best you can for as long as you can until you can take the tiniest step forward.

My journey through grief is,

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